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Yesterday was pretty fun going trick-or-treating! Only thing is, where have all the gracious candy-givers run off to? :P Just kidding! Anyway, so Bianca, Teresa, and I arrived back in San Marcos around 10:45pm...Things just sort of got weird after that.

Teresa was invited to some Halloween Movie-a-thon, or whatever. Therefore, we proceeded to drive all over San Marcos looking for the place. The map that Teresa had printed out earlier that day didn't have the location marked on it, so we were driving around in circles. Finally, after what felt like forever, we headed back to Teresa's dorm and her and Bianca ran in to print out another map, with clear directions this time around. ;)

Yeah...so we finally find the place. And I kid you not, the people there were creepy...I felt really uncomfortable being there. There were beer bottles all over the place, some creepy red light, and the host wasn't even present. According to Bianca, that one guy who tried to shake our hands was drunk and I didn't even notice it! O_O He stunk, too. He had gone outside to smoke...and I really despise the smell of cigarrette smoke! *gags*

Needless to say, we didn't stay long at all. After standing there talking to Teresa's friend for five or ten minutes, we excused ourselves by saying we had things to do...study and stuff.

So, after spending hours looking for the creepy-inhabited place, Bianca, Teresa, and I were starving, having not eaten dinner yet. All the on-campus places were closed, unfortunately, so our only opinion was fast-food. Burger King was nearby and we hadn't eaten there in a long time, so we decided to give it a shot...Only we didn't know the indoors area was closed before I parked and everyone started toward the dining facility. O_O There was some weirdo in the kids' playing area! He was just standing there, face tilted toward the ceiling, with his hands covering his cheeks and his eyes closed. We couldn't figure out what the heck he was doing!

Anyway, so...on the way back toward the car, guess what happened? Some idiots from the male species decided that I was whistle worthy! Their beady little eyes were staring at me and they started whistling at me like I was some prostitute or something...it made me so angry! Idiots...*glare*

And that was our interesting night...I have a BIO exam tomorrow, I need to go study...

-Crys

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Today was interesting. For some strange reason, I was in a weird mood...I kept wanting to sing Disney songs. :P I went from singing Pocahontas to The Lion King to The Little Mermaid, etc. Teresa, Bianca, and I were all in public, too! We had just eaten at The Den and were on our way back to my dorm when the urge hit me...

"You think you own whatever land you land on,
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim..." :P

Anyway, so Halloween is coming up! I'm so excited, Angelica, Teresa, Bianca, Steffanie and I all plan to go trick-or-treating this year. Wow. I haven't been trick-or-treating in years. I'm usually the one who willingly stays at home to give out candy...because, well, there's just something about handing out the candy that appeals to me. I always thought it was really fun! We never really had many trick-or-treaters, which is a shame because I never had the opportunity to see many costumes or hand out much candy...but it was fun all the same. :D Which reminds me, The Nightmare Before Christmas comes on Cartoon Network on Sunday at 7pm (6pm for us, I believe)! I'm so going to try to catch it, and I rarely watch TV.

Unfortunately, I have two tests this upcoming week. T_T The exams never end! I had a MATH 2311 exam on Wednesday and a POSI exam on Thursday, so I was studying a lot this week...and looks like next week will wind up being the same. I have an English Lit exam on Monday and a BIO exam on Thursday...Believe it or not, but I really don't mind studying for these tests. The only thing that really unnerves me is that no matter how hard I try, I never seem to be able to get in as much studying as I want. I always feel like I should have studied more, even though I know that I studied quite a bit. Maybe it's my perfectionist tendencies coming out here, but still! I really want to do my best, hopefully to bump my GPA up a few notches. Anyway, I'm happy I don't have a test on Halloween or Wednesday. ;) That would be so cruel!

Hmm...so my advance registration starts on Halloween. (Go figure! :P) I'm a little unsure what to sign up for this next semester, since I really have no clue where I'll be next year. I'm hoping that I'll end up at UT and will be working toward a Nursing degree, but as optimistic as I am...I've researched everything thoroughly. UT is a huge school, with competitive entrance guidelines and conditions. According to the statistics, in 2005 alone, out of approximately 7,000 transfer students who applied, only 23% were actually accepted (roughly 1,500 students). I tried looking up specifics of the recommended GPA, etc. But all I could manage to dig up was that to be strongly reccommended you need a 3.0 GPA, at least. So, yeah. I have no clue whether to take classes geared toward UT or Texas State, especially since UT doesn't require/accept some of the remaining basics I'm working toward at Texas State...

The only thing I know to do at this point is to sign up for half UT geared classes and half Texas State geared classes. I'm looking at 16 hours, if everything goes according to plan. I just hope everything works out and I'm able to sign up for the classes I want...I've tried for two semesters and still have been unsuccessful in signing up for Communication! It's so annoying! Everyone seems to grab at those classes like dying animals, clawing and vicious for their right to sign up for them... @_@ Anyway, I'm looking at:

COMM 1310
POSI 2320
BIO 1430
NUTR 2360
PSY 1300

Hmm...hopefully things work out. I'm sure they will, but I don't want to get my hopes up and be let down...hard. Ya know? If I'm not accepted at UT, then I suppose I'll force myself to complete some other degree at Texas State. (Not like I wouldn't LOVE to stay at Texas State. I would actually prefer to, seeing how I've become thoroughly attached to Bobcat Country! :D) In fact, I find it funny that I actually am trying to attend UT next year...no offense, but I really hate the whole UT spirit. It gets on my nerves so much! If I do manage to get accepted, I plan to wear Texas State gear for as long as possible, that way if someone asks why, I will tell them Texas State was my original institution and I loved the environment much better. :P Sorry, but the obnoxious-ness and huge campus really do not turn me on or anything...Now, the academics probably would. Who knows? Like I said, everything is up in the air at this point.

Anyway...this is long enough. I need to get to bed...I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm so sick of working with cakes! I'm starting to really hate looking at them! Yuck! :/

-Crys

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( Life as a CX... )



Okay...back to studying. Dang you, LiveJournal! Katy! You distracted me! :P This surprisingly sounds a lot like me...

-Crys

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I so totally stole this from Katers...

( So you want to know... )








( Halloween Dress-Up )



-Crys

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If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

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So apparently, I have been very bad! I'm sorry to everyone who has suffered an injustice by my hand!

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In August I stole revenanttheory's purse (-30 points). Last month I helped littlechibi across the street (6 points). Last Monday I set tainted_core's puppy on fire (-66 points). In May I caught a purse-snatcher who stole invaderrossi's purse (30 points). In January I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-68 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich! Sincerely, crystal_whistle

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

-Crys

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Like, yay! :) The semester officially ended on Tuesday (after my last final at 3pm)! Whoo-hoo! So, I've been a pretty lazy bum for the past few days and its awsome! Man, I am so looking forward to having a month off and not going back to Texas State until January 14, 2006! Although, once I go back I will probably be dreading it since I signed up for 16 hours next semester and my classes are probably a lot harder than they were this past semester...but I'll deal with it when it comes.

But wow, this semester just flew by for me! I guess the funny thing is I really don't feel like I did much...study, complain about roommate, eat on campus with Bianca...Of course, there were the few odd times toward the end there...spend a night at Bianca's dorm on her floor, stay up late Studying for History final (I didn't go to bed until 4am), spend cold evenings studying in the hall study area...

Anyway, I think in all, my first semester was pretty good! :) I survived, I passed all of my classes, and I still have my sanity! And I have managed to wean myself away from the computer so that I now do not get on it as much as I used to!

I am determined that I will be on the Dean's List. Yes, that will happen because I have set a goal that it will happen so I will be continuously working towards it. I guess I'm at a pretty good start right now...although, I didn't get mostly A's like I used to in high school, but I suppose that is to be expected since college is tougher and all. But I emerged from my first semester at Texas State with a 3.18 GPA, so I figure that's a good start...right?

I have to admit, though, that I am a little disappointed in myself. I think that I could have probably managed a higher grade in a few of my classes had I put in my studying time, especially in the beginning. Unfortunately, back then I spent WAY too much time on the computer and neglected my studies a little too much...

But at least everything turned out okay, so I should be happy with that...and I am! :)

Well, I hope everyone has been doing good, like I said...I haven't been on the computer much. Well, ta-ta! :P

-Crys

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crystal_whistle's Halloween party:

invaderrossi dressed as Worf from "Star Trek".
littlechibi dressed as a pixie.
revenanttheory dressed as the King of Bahamas.
tainted_core forgot to put on clothes!

Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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Just a little something I put together...hehehe!

-Crys

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You need guidance.
You have become very confused in your life
right now and are unable to make decisions that
pleases you. You may resort to drastic measures
as harming yourself, but the situation doesn't
seem to get any better by whatever method you
are using for now. There is a pain inside
because of this and you feel helpless in your
life, thinking you will never find your way
back. But even though the path may seem dark
you still try to find yourself, which means
your inner battle is not over.


What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Pink did this so I figured...why not? :P


::7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die::
*Make a difference in someone's life.
*Travel to somewhere outside of Texas!
*Fall in love.
*Get married.
*Have kids...about 3 sounds good.
*Complete college with at least a 'B' average.
*Read the entire Bible.

::7 Things I Can Do::
*Snap! (Yes, I can! Although, I had to teach myself...)
*Admit when I'm wrong.
*Keep my side of the room clean.
*Express emotions and what I'm feeling well.
*Be honest and open with people--> I don't lie, or if I do its hardly ever because I don't like lying.
*Give good advice and a listening ear when its needed.
*Eat, and walk, fast!

::7 Things I Can't Do::
*I can't whistle.
*I can't roll my tongue.
*I can't do something I'm not supposed to do without feeling guilty.
*I can't ignore or cast aside helping someone out, talking to someone, or listening to someone when they really need it.
*I can't intentionally cause myself pain or another.
*I can't dance.
*I can't break my habit of biting my nails!

::7 Things That Attract Me To Opposite WHATEVER Sex::
*They make me smile and laugh.
*Fun to talk to.
*At least something in common with me.
*They are brunet.
*They are understanding and caring of others feelings and situations.
*Don't talk or type stupid...AKA very un-intellectual like.
*A nice guy that isn't out to 'get some', shallow, and looks only skin deep...someone who looks deeper and is respectful of your decisions and opinions.

::7 Things I Say Most Often::
*What did you say?
*Oh, really?
*I see!
*Anyways...
*In my opinion...
*It seems to me...
*Have a great day and remember to smile!

::7 Favorite Movies::
*The Matrix
*Center Stage
*13 Going On 30
*The Mummy Returns
*Underworld
*Gladiator
*Crash

::7 Things I Can't Live Without::
*Love
*My family
*My friends
*Hope
*Smiley faces
*Having books to read!
*Being able to read!

::7 Things I Can Live Without::
*Discrimination and Prejudices
*Stereotypes
*Liars
*Cheaters
*Alcoholic drinks in general.
*Smokers/any product that you smoke. (Cigarettes, weed, whatever...)
*Bad punctuation, grammar, and spelling!

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I swear I just cried my eyes out...the following just touched me so much! I'm pretty sure it won't have the same reaction from most others, but...just read it, please?

Breakfast at McDonald's ... Please read until the end. This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!): I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called "Smile." The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men. As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling". His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance. He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm). Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you." I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope." I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope." We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love. I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?" I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed. In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn: UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE. Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. If you think this story has touched you in any way, please send this to everyone you know. There is an Angel sent to watch over you. In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over. An Angel wrote: Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart. God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest. Keep this going.

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Now these are the good pics! :P Check them out!

( The Good Stuff...AKA Amusing Pics! )

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So, a lot has happened...This is mostly a rant, I guess. Or just my way of informing everyone of the recent happenings. But, here's the deal...

You see, I joined this site called 'myspace.com'. The main reason? Orlando has an account there and I wanted to view this one entry that was titled 'Nothing To Lose'. He only allows his friends to view his entries so I joined the site. Somehow he always finds me on the sits he's on, so he requested to be my friend and I accepted...so I got to finally take a look at his journal entries on there. Apparently, by the clues given on them he did like me. He didn't exactly come out and say my name, per say...but it was the clues in the entries that clued me in.

So, after he asked me out about two weeks ago, I finally knew that he was serious and liked me. So, now I go back to actually REPLY to the entries...and guess what I find? He edited the most recent one, and put in leet: "I like laura". So, this has me really confused. Which is it? Did he decide I'm too much trouble? Did I scare him away? I seriously think I scared him away...but well, this just makes no sense...now he completely pulled a 180 on me.

Anyway, so the guy I borrowed the Cowboy Bebop episodes from, I talk to him on occasion on AIM...so he let me talk to him and rant about all this. It felt really good to get it out...but seriously, I'm wondering what is Orlando's deal? Well, I still am not 100% sure, but while talking to Bryan (the guy who lent me Bebop), Orlando AIMed me. Whatever, he had been on for like two hours before he finally AIMed me...and then he says "I love you...as a friend". So now I'm like, what the heck?

I really don't care if you want to know the truth...I don't think me and Orlando would have worked out. But why even bother asking me out, dropping hints in his myspace account only to change it, and even comment and say that he wants to hang out to get to know me better? Especially when he decides to pull a 180 on me? He needs to make up his mind. My roommate thinks he's bitter because he feels heartbroken and rejected or something...but I'm not sure that is the case. Oh, well...if he wants to play this game of his, I'm not going to play. If he really wants to 'hang out' and 'get to know me better'...then he's going to have to make an effort and quit acting like he is.

*Sigh* Oh, well...blah, I had fun talking to Bryan. Me and him can talk about anything and he's turning into a great friend, even if my only real contact with him is through AIM and e-mail. :D

Moving on here, I haven't gone through everyone's recent posts to read and reply, so sorry! I'll get to it as soon as I can...but it probably won't be anytime soon. I barely have time to post this...but, Teresa, I did manage to read that you got accepted to Texas State and UNT! Congratulations! :D I'm super happy for you and very proud! I knew you'd get in all along, I had no doubts whatsoever! *w00t* Anyway, as for my opinion. I'd say to follow your heart, if you really want to go to UNT, then go there, persue your dream of fashion design. Don't let your Dad or anyone stop you! Texas State is a great school too, even for as much as I down it...but the choice is really yours. I won't lie, I'd miss you if you go all the way to UNT, but that is your decision. The only thing is that I think it would be best and as a suggestion..you might consider making a pro and con list of attending both schools. It might help you get your thoughts organized and make a decision. But whatever you choose, I am with you 100%! :D Also, have you considered going to Texas State for your basics and then transferring to UNT once you get into your major classes? This might appease your dad for the time being. And you know, wherever you go, you could always register your major as one thing and then switch it without your parents knowing! :P Ever consider that?

Anyway...I need to go, my friends! Everyone take care, do your best in school, and remember that I miss everyone dearly! So, have a great day and remember to smile! Hopefully I will eventually be able to see everyone, and hopefully its soon! Until then, bye-bye! ^_^

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Yay! I got a new digital camera this weekend! :D Here, I finally have pics of my dorm to share with everyone...take a look at my cardboard box...
( Cardboard Box Pics )

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All of what is said is true and according to the following, I need professional help:

Insecurity and Self-Esteem
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If therapy isn't something you would consider right now, you could try one of the self-help books written by experts in the field. Spend some time in the Self Help section of your local book store. You'll be amazed at how much advice is out there.

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So, I'm back in San Marcos now...this weekened seemed to just fly by! And once again I was unable to make it up to Crockett on Friday...Friday is the only day I am able to come eat lunch with everyone. I have classes on Monday thru Thursday. Its just that I'm still having sleeping problems so when I go to sleep on Thursday night, I don't usually wake up until 2pm on Friday. Although, I did manage to wake up about 12pm this past Friday...but I looked at the clock and flopped back down and went back to sleep...I'm really sorry everyone. Look, I finally found that brochure, and this is what it says about stress:

"HOW DOES STRESS AFFECT YOU? We experience the effects of stress physically, emotionally, behaviorally, and mentally. When a student feels threatened or fearful (e.g. fear of failure, rejection, or physical harm) the body reacts automatically in what is known as the fight or flight response. The sympathetic nervous system activates the fight or flight response to prepare to deal with the threatening situation. -Adrenaline flow in the blood is increased. -Muscles become tensed. -Heart rate and respiration are increased. Emotional signs include: -anxiety -tension -irritability -sadness -depression -or extreme happiness and exhilaration Behaviorally a person under stress may experience: -reduce physical coordination and control -sleeplessness -irrational behavior Mental or cognitive signs include a severe reduction in the ability to: -concentrate -store information in memory -solve mental problems"

Some of it, really sounds like it fits me...but that doesn't really help much, since it doesn't solve my problem, does it? But all I can do is try to cope and hopefully time will pass and I'll eventually be able to sleep normally over here in my cardboard box.

Oh, I went to see Flightplan this weekend with my mom, NarNar, and my niece Andrea. It was a good movie, very surprising...at times you weren't really sure what was going to happen! But I'm so psyched, they showed the movie trailer/commercial to 'Memoirs of a Geisha' and it looks like they're doing a really good job on the movie! I read the book and really liked it, so I'm very excited to see the movie! :D It comes out in December...I can't wait! ^_^

Anyway, I really don't know what else to say, except that...if anyone sees Crystal, tell her that I am unable to e-mail her at the e-mail address she gave me...I have tried to send her 2 e-mails and they both got rejected and bounced back my way. So, will someone please tell her that? She is the only one I haven't had any contact with in a long, long time...everyone else has a GJ or LJ so I can see what's up with them! But not her!

Well, adios, mis amigos!

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So, I'm back in San Marcos...

( To Be Me )

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Let's see...I finally feel rested up and refreshed! :D Anyway, I'm so happy people! :D You see, when I was little, around 10 or 11 years old, I used to buy a magazine from the old Albertsons, the one that used to be where they are building the new ACC across from Crockett. I used to love to look around in the magazine/book section and I found that magazine while browsing there, and ever since I found it, I began buying. Well, I used to look at the ads in the end as well as the actual content...and there would always been this one ad that always caught my eye. It was an ad that advertised for penpals. You paid $3 to the agency and they would match you up with a penpal. Anyway, ever since I saw that as a little girl, I have always wanted to have a penpal. Anyway, you probably are wondering where I am going with this? Point is, I finally have a penpal! :D I found this website yesterday and it allows you to put your name into a database so others can send you e-mails if they are interested in being your e-pal, or you can do snail mail, whichever you decide on. You can also just search through the people and send them e-mail, instead of waiting for people to message you. Anyway, I send requests to a few people, but mostly I had requests come my way. Well, as of right now, I am snail mailing with a girl named Sarah from North Carolina. I'm also an e-pal with a girl from the UK named Alice. I also might be talking to someone from India, France, Japan, and someone from Massachusetts. I'm not really sure about those yet, though. The only sure one's that I have at this point are my e-pal from the UK and my snail mail penpal from North Carolina. Anyway, in case everyone is confused, snail mail penpaling is the traditional penpal way of corresponding by writing letters through the mail. The e-pal way is basically corresponding by writing letter electronically, through e-mail. Yep, I'm really excited about all this! :D I have a letter ready to send my snail mail pal in North Carolina right now. I just need to put a stamp on it and send it through the mail! :D Well, adios!

Note: Originally posted on September 17, 2005 on GreatestJournal.

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*Sigh* Gosh, people...I'm so freakin' tired! I'm extremely sleepy right now, but then again, when am I not? (At least during the week at Texas State.) I have to admit, though...that I've been getting a worse sleep than usual this week. I'm beginning to wonder when, or even if, I will ever get a good night's rest at my dorm. I've been considering scheduling an appointment with one of the couselors or something...maybe they could give me some sort of advice on how I can sleep better at night. Although, I highly doubt this...but still. Anyway, putting that aside, I had to take my first college test today. It was math...and I think I so failed it. There were only 13 problems on it, so if I missed more than 3, I failed the test. That's the reason I don't like taking short tests, because there aren't many problems, so if you just miss a few...you could fail outright. I had trouble with three of the problems, so I guess as long as I got every single one of the rest right, I passed...but somehow I don't think that's the case. But, I'm not really too worried at this point. My teacher said that we were going to take 4 exams this semester and he would not count one of them. Whichever one I get the lowest score on, he'll just drop it. On another note, I am really confused at this moment in time. I used to think I had at least a general idea of what I wanted to do when I got out of college; the major I wanted to go out into the work force with. I knew I wanted to teach, but I just didn't know what. I was narrowing it between upper-elementary and high school History. Then I finally decided on the elementary, mainly because I love kids and I think that I would feel more comfortable and have more fun working around them. But...now I'm not sure what I want to do. Don't get me wrong, I love teaching! I devoted half of my high school career to be involved with teacher interning, so believe me, I know I love it. Its just...being here at Texas State really has me thinking. I've been stuck in dealing with teaching, participating in the teaching envirnoment, thinking about teaching for so long now...that I'm beginning to be weary of my future. I love teaching, but I'm concerned that I've been stuck in the frame of mind that all I'm good at, all I love, is to teach. So that now I'm afraid that if I just go ahead and proceed with Education as my career, I will regret later on that I never went and explored. I never attempted to try and see if there was anything else that I found interesting, that I was good at, and loved to do...that could be a possible major, too. So, you see...I'm very confused and weary right now. I think I need to do some job shadowing or something...maybe research, or volunteering at different work places, or just...something. But, yeah...I'm extremely tired now...I want to drop dead, so I'll be going now. Take care my friends! :D

Note: Originally posted on September 15, 2005 on GreatestJournal.